love?

so i don't want to give a title to what i feel for this girl but its beginning to look a lot like 'title', i met her about 4 years ago; give or take and to this day i still light up everytime i see her like ridiculousy! i can't help but have this ear to ear smile when i'm with her. when isn't she on my mind? rarely am i intimidated by the opposite sex, but in this case intimidated is what i am. i really want to see where this is going to go, not to mention almost all of my friends want it to happen already. don't think i'm quite ready for it though, hopefully i will be shortly and she'll still be there

mr. brightside.

on the upside of things, i've accomplished three out of ten goals(3/10) i've set for myself and i'm super stoked about it. planning on finishing all ten before this year is through and setting another ten if not twenty goals! my life at this point is going up, hit one small bump but already climbing back up from it. far as being alienated from everybody goes, i'm kind of coming back out of my own head but not quite i still have to get my head right and its nowhere near ready.

hopefully soon...

shit happens.

seriously i used to throw this phrase around without a care in the world but fuck, shit really does happen when you're careless and not thinking straight. did something i never thought i would do, ever. won't happen again but its just crazy thinking about it. a hypocrite is something i thought i'd never be haha guess not!

so weird.

i'm actually really content with my life right now.
ALMOST happy, i'll reach it soon.

working man.

this income and productive use of time should make a huge difference.

finally!

get with the program.

time keeps moving but my life seems to stay in the same exact spot. i procrastinate for absolutely no apparent reason about everything and anything and i'm simply over it. changing my life for the better, sorry if it hurts or alienates anybody but it has to be done and it has to be done now.

fuck!

just a glance.

i keep finding myself looking at things i shouldn't or better yet don't need to look at for some odd reason, but i keep doing it. it's like 20% of me wishes it was me but then again the other 80% is kind of relieved that it isn't. either way my life is slowly but surely starting to unravel in its great adventerous way. i've had great things and people in my life, but now i want incredible and indescribable things and people in my life. well whatever's up the road for me i'm sure i'll hit plenty of speed bumps along the way.