you're all talk

i see i was all talk because i haven't done anything in the past couple months except waste fucking valuable time ! not only mine but other people's as well and it pisses me off because i know i'm so much stronger than this, i have so much will power that i'm choosing not to use for some reason that's even beyond me. it's ridiculous. FUCK YOU MANDO!! wake the fuck up before you're an old grumpy mother fucker with nothing to his name. bottom line baby boy, GET YOUR SHIT STRAIGHTENED OUT and show yourself you can fucking do it! and DO IT.

changes.

"i see no changes, wake up in the morning and i ask myself, is life worth living should i blast myself?"

from now until next year i will be re-shaping myself physically and mentally.

when i am finished, the world will be surprised.

...it's for the best, don't worry.

kid cudi.

can't tell you how much i feel and relate to his music

boy < girl

when i met you i was scared to know you

when i knew you i was scared to like you

when i liked you i was scared to love you

now that i love you i'm scared to lose you

music.

i love you
is what i say to you
to every person to every thing
we were always true happines and always small flings

i played you countless times
yet i still called you mine

you sometimes brought me to tears
even helped rid me of some fears
you drive my life through the good and the bad
always here for me, happy or sad

i wish we didn't have to part
we've been together from the start
but forever you live on
even after we're gone
i love you forever and always on




-mando ds

as of now.

my life never seizes to surprise me at the randomest times. whether it be pleasant or unpleasant it's still a surprise, and needless to say it keeps my life interesting and worth living. as the saying goes " you learn something new everyday" i think i learn something new about myself everyday and oh my! the secrets i've come to learn about myself. it's almost as if i'm this perplexity of personalities that gives birth to me as a whole but i'm slowly learning the times these other said "mando's" like to show themselves, rarely are they all together at one given time. except for maybe in my dreams and that would explain why there so vivid and hard to comprehend or disinguish a meaning in them, at least from the portions of the ones i can remember. i'm sort of rambling on i'll just say i'm getting more in touch with myself, which i think will let me get more in touch with everyone else and sort of open up more personally.

progression.

finally i see the light at the end of the tunnel.
i've been pushing and striving to get through all of the bullshit i got myself into recently, but i'm almost out of the ruff patch i hit, i'm so close i can feel it. so ready to take my life off of pause and get it started again. basically this year is going to consist mainly of
school,
work,
and bettering MYSELF.